Redefinition of sophomore slump.

I can't wait for the summer to be over. I just found a penny tails side up. I can't understand what I'm doing wrong. I want things to be okay again. I'm not even sure they were okay but it felt like it. I want to know what I want and do it. For some reason I don't anymore. For some reason I'm thinking of the consequences and of others. Not thinking of others is probably what got me in this mess. Or it could've been what kept me out of it. I don't know where I went wrong. I'm tearing my life down and once there's only the basics left I think I'll be able to start building it back up. But why did I have to lose them? Was it worth it or were they bad for me or was I really that bad for them anyways?

I've got friends in all the right places. I know what they want and I know they don't want me to stay.