I love the morning.

4am and the sun is coming up. I'm listening to Heavy by Holly Brook. It's peaceful. I hate when the day actually starts though because then it feels like you've been up all night and if you don't yet, you will soon. So I always fall asleep way too early when I wake up before sunrise. Church yesterday was fun. It's just weird because I haven't had many chances to be social since I started my medicine and I'm pretty sure there's a difference now. Yesterday I officially stopped talking to Rachel. Maybe she already decided that for me but I was unaware. I'm glad we both are now. It's over. I feel so great now. It's like I can move on with my life and I can. I'm still seeing where things with Brittany and me are going. So far I'm happy with her. We don't fight. I don't want to be with anybody else. She let's me have my space. We have some of the same interests like piercings. It's fun being around her. She's really cute haha. Sure there might be minor things but I'm not going to nitpick because if I did then nobody would ever be good enough for me. She makes me happy and that's all I need to think about right now because I'm still a kid and I don't need to make things any more complicated than they are.

5:22 am May 28, 2009