I'll leave when the wind blows.

I just hate and love at the same time when I find a song that really gets to me. That tears me apart with the lyrics and opens my eyes. It's the very reminder I need but the one I'm not sure I wanted. Wow, you are being so gay. Music is like drawing and painting. Just not my kind. I can appreciate it. I think everyone can to some degree. I just can't make it. It'd be great if I could. But there's probably reasons why I can't. Take me back to your bed. I love you so much that it hurts my head. I found this song randomly on somebodys Myspace profile I added a long time ago. I don't even talk to them but I can't stop listening to it. And I'm adding tons of songs to my iPod. Nights when I stayed up late all I do is wait and wait. You're never coming home to me. That's the hardest thing to see. I got to breathe. You can't take that from me. I can finally say we're through. Well I have to let all this teenage emotion out somehow right? I like to imagine I have no feelings anymore. I'm pretty accurate. I hardly cry anymore. I hardly flip out on people anymore. What's my problem? Well my problem is that I don't have a problem.. We ran away. What are we running from? I wish it were possible to have a "true friend" nowadays. See, there's a difference between "true friends" and "best friends". True friends are pretty elemtary school. I don't think they exist anymore. The kind that will never leave you for a pretty girl. Where drugs never get in the way of your friendship. Where you don't have nasty secrets to spread about the other and you're never sure whether you can trust one another. The kind that won't stray when they find their own interests and you find yours. We never knew about those things. Best friends now are just ones who.. well.. you have a good time with. By any means. You forgive them for whatever they do. And if you don't they just aren't your friend anymore. You don't have to trust them either since nobody ever trusts anybody these days. We're all grown ups here, right? Not even close. Take me back to those good old days. Take everybody back.