you're out now i'm assuming and where ever you are and whenever we're not talking i'm wondering if you're with him whoever he is. and if he's making you smile like i do. if i'm even on your mind. or if the memories of us are slowly being erased with the ones you're making now. i don't understand how anyone could EVER like a guy that much. i could pick apart my brain and never find an answer. i don't know how to react to this. you'll end up hating me. there's only so much i can put you through that you can put up with. i just wish you understood why i act how i do and sometimes i wish i could be different so i'd be better for you but then i wouldn't be myself. yeah, i guess it's not a big deal compared to everything i did but you feel guilty for a reason. and i knew it. i had a feeling before you told me. nothing gave it away but whenever i actually get like this the other person always feels differently. oh well i'm leaving for my friends house.