the silence will set her free

I'm 50% sure I'm going insane and 50% sure I'm already insane. I flip out on the drop of a dime. Is that the right phrase? Maybe it's a hat.. I was so depressed this morning and all of a sudden nobody could get me to shut up. Now I'm 99% sure I've always been insane but it's only showing now because I'm only on 1/4 my normal dose of topomax. I'm determined to fix things without medicine though. Who knows what it's doing to my brain in the long run. I had the craziest dreams last night. I won't even write them on here. But I woke up at almost exactly six am and I was so wide awake right when I got up. I was panicking a little but that might have been because of the dream or I was worrying I'd be late for school. I hate schedule changes. So I went and slept with my mom and sister til I woke up at 1 pm. Greggory cuddled with me too. (: He's the most adorable thing ever. So today I drew a jester. Well I'm only done the outline and a few details. It's pretty good though. I'll probably hang it up. I just finished cleaning my room too. I didn't do a very good job but at least you can walk in it now. I only did because my mom said she would play football with me outback. But now I don't even feel like it anymore. Sorry I never replied. You were right for what you said but it hurt and I can't say I'm okay with it. I'm being such an idiot right now and I need someone whose always there for me no matter what I do. But I don't think anybody ever gets that because there's always a point where you have to draw the line. So I guess if you can wait til I can be better then it'll work. Or we should just forget everything and leave it at this.