Every time I leave you go and lock the door.

It looks like you were crying, or at least sad. This never should have even started so I wouldn't be in this position right now. Not that I regret anything. I really wish you could move on. Then you'd be happy. Sure I'd miss it but it's better off that way. It's not where I should be. I've just been in a really depressed mood lately and not much has been going right. I feel like I should be doing something but I can't. I slept until five today. Medicine withdraw has to be one of the worst things to experience. Well.. maybe. It just sucks. Maybe I should get back on it. It's not like I was a better person then. I never seem to do the right thing. But at least then I didn't care about anything. I could just sit there and be happy. I wasn't even motivated to do anything. That's pretty pathetic. I know I shouldn't go back on my medicine. It's not who I am. Maybe I'm sad for a reason. I need to figure out why and do something about it. I wanna get away and make something of my life. I wanna have my own life. Because I'm so sick of boundaries. There's always something telling me I can't do something. But why? It's not because I literally can't. It's just a mindset. I need change. I can't wait for school to start either. At least I'll have something to occupy my time. Maybe things will change.