Show me what I'm looking for

Seriously? I'm glad I said what I did because this just proves it. I still have others in my life and so do you. We shouldn't though. And won't if it ever gets to that point again. I can't stand that song either. For multiple reasons but even more so now.

So, medicine withdraw this morning. It's happened twice already and it feels horrible. Like there's an ice pack on my chest and it won't go away and none of it will go away until I take my medicine. It's messed up. Maybe I did learn a lot from starting the medicine. Maybe it did open my mind to a lot. Maybe it did help. But it's not worth it. I'm not myself. I'm a lot more motivated now that I'm almost off of it.

Revas sending me links to art schools. I'm almost completely sure that's what I want to do with my life. Art. If it's anything else then I know I'll be asking myself everyday why I'm even alive. That sounds dumb but hey a lot of people hate their job and I won't be one of them because I refuse to waste my life.