"i wish i could sleep but i can't lay on my back because there's a knife for everyday that i've known you."

Every time I come home I hope to see you standing there. I know you won’t be. There’s still a small part of me that wishes you would though. I won’t go to where I know I’ll see you. I’ll only be disappointed when we act like we never knew each other. I tried to take every trace of you out of my life but I’m only reminded of you even more. You can’t blame me. It’s what you were trying for all along. When you decided it wasn’t me you should be with you left. It’s a plan set only for failure. If there's a god you’re just like him. He created something and gave it everything it needed to set itself on a path of destruction. Here we are only getting worse. Here I am not getting any better without you. I wish for once I’d look up and not hope to see you.