so come home.

there's never an ounce that i breathe without thinking about who i could have been if you didn't leave.

I guess it's pretty easy to do the right thing when you know what that is but what makes a person good or bad? There's no fine line. Who are we to judge? When you start questioning what the right way to do things is then you have a problem. There doesn't seem to be a right way. There will always be some problem. There's not one simple right answer to every problem that you have to choose and then everything is fine until the next problem. Everythings different shades of grey. That's why I refuse to live under laws and rules and commandments. What's right and wrong? I can't say. Can anybody say? I don't exactly think so. Is killing wrong? Most people would automatically say yes. What if it's in self defense? Some people would still think it's wrong. Most would kill in self defense though. Is it so wrong then? Who knows. Animals kill in self defense. But don't humans believe they're higher than animals? Animals don't go to heaven according to some religions. I believe they do though. So they should be treated equally. So why shouldn'twe kill in self defense? That leads to hey, why don't we do everything like animals? They know life better than us. I know my problem is always asking 'why'. I don't think animals do that. Do they ask why they're alive, why they're here, why they are what they are, why the grass is green(or whatever it is to them)? Well no. They just live. So why do we(there I go again)? Is it a curse or a blessing? It gave us all we have but (spider man quote)"with great power comes great responsibility". I don't think humans have the responsibility necessary for the power to ask why. And I ask why a hell of a lot. I wonder why I ask it a lot more than others. There I go again. I guess I'm just a curious person. Just like philosophers. I'm not saying I'm as smart as they were though. Then again I'm not saying they were that smart at all. They could have been going in all the wrong direction. Some of their books just make no sense to me. Or maybe it's something most people will never understand. That's why I believe the simple way is the best way to live. You're happy and that's all there is to it. Who could ask for more? Everybody is looking for complicated answers to happiness but i think it's simplicity and some people eventually realize that.