This may sound corny..

..but I don't know what I'd do without my Grandmom. I was laying in bed and I started panicking that if I didn't call her I would lose her. So I did and we had a casual conversation for a little while but with her it's never a casual conversation. We talked about everything people normally would but it wasn't one dimensional. She's just that kind of person that you enjoy talking to for hours about anything and everything. So things lead to other things which lead to us talking about the theory of evolution vs. creationism and Brittany and life and fate and religion and the government. She is one of the best people to talk to about these things. It should be put in dictionary.com under "perfect" as one of the definitions. I can even talk about girls to her. Not about sex to her because I'm uninterested in analyzng that aspect of life although it plays a role. I mean analyzing personalities and compatibility. Tonight, I think I figured out Brittany's role. She's simple. She isn't multi-dimensional or complex. She doesn't know herself. She's a kid. I, in my head, am not. I know my interests and so on. I've been where she was. I'm not compatible with her in the long run as far as I can tell but her interests and true personality has not yet been revealed due to her immaturity(not in the offensive sense of the word). I feel in my place with her at the moment though. I'm in a simple relationship with an adorable teenage girl that I like. I'm playing my role as a teenager which is releaving stress on me. It takes focus off of dating and puts it on more things like spirituality and balance. Also, I have more freedom and time for school work. No one can predict the future indefinitely so I'm letting it be and I'm content at the moment. We talked about Rachel. How we both loved each other but our personalities were so similiar that they contradicted in the worst ways. I won't go into that because I've been over it so many times in my head. All I can say is I think I've managed to work out a lot of the quirks in my personality. Although people don't change as their genes do not, their tendencies do. What got to me the most was when she brought up how she hopes to live a lot longer so she can learn more because she finds the stuff we talked about very interesting. So I brought up how I love talking to her and I hope we both live a very long time so I can always talk to her. Then I asked her if she will still talk to me after she dies. She said yes of course she would. I asked her if she promised and she said, "I promise." So I said if I die before her I'll talk to her too. I almost cried.